Tate McRae Lyrics
"chaotic"

I have this paralyzing fear that I'll maybe go nowhere
But God forbid me ever admitting I could be scared
And I can't stand my friends right now, we got nothing in common
But being lonely's worse than just having friends that don't care

You said it looks like I've been goin' through hell
How did you know? How could you tell?
Ask me to explain myself, well

I'm tryin' my best here to be brutally honest
Nobody said changin' would be this exhaustin'
A foot on the break 'cause it's been making me carsick
How could you blame me? Growing up is chaotic

Don't wanna say it but I really think that I miss him
It might seem stupid, but I still look through all of our texts
Who knew that wanting someone could ever make me this desperate?
Don't think I'll do that again, no

You said it looks like I've been goin' through hell
How did you know? How could you tell?
You ask me to explain myself, well

I'm tryin' my best here to be brutally honest
Nobody said changin' would be this exhaustin'
A foot on the break 'cause it's been making me carsick
How could you blame me? Growing up is chaotic

And maybe I'm just blowing all this shit up in my head
But I can't help it, no, I can't help it (ah-ah)
Fooling myself thinking that I'll never love again
Goddamn, I felt it, I really felt it (ah-ah)
Maybe I'm just blowing all this shit up in my head
But I can't help it, no I can't help it (ah-ah)
Spending too much time on things I know that I'll forget
But damn, I felt it

I'm tryin' my best here to be brutally honest
Nobody said changin' could be this exhaustin'
Foot on the break 'cause it's been making me carsick
How could you blame me?